Today i would like to give a simple advice;
Never let go of the people, who genuinely care about you.
Now when i look around, i see less humanity, i see less amount of love and kindness among the humans. I see everyone thinking about themselves and NOTHING more.
And finding a soul, who care about you, and your existence in this cruel world is no less than a blessing.
I care too, and once i cared deeply, like I’ve never cared for anyone before and i got nothing in return but harsh words or being pushed away. I guess that’s what you wanted? Nobody to care about you? But darling, I’m sorry i cared, more like cared way too much.
Now honestly, at night my mind does nothing but overthink, which i must say it isn’t something i should be doing. I just feel hopeless, you know that sinking feeling, where you feel like
My existence doesn’t matter.
Yeah.. that’s something i think of every night.
But sometimes you meet someone who will give you some hope. Who will enter your life like a ray of sunshine, in a dark room. He came to me like a rescuer. I did a mistake too, i pushed him away, but he didn’t give up on me. He would tell me to remove my anger on him, when i was mad. One day when i was hungry, and sad at the same time, he asked me if he should get me food? And i laughed and brushed it off. I though that, “Oh he isn’t that jobless.” But guess what? After a few minutes i get a call from him. He asks me to come under my building, and there he was standing with a McDonald’s pack with his adorable smile. Trust me, i felt special that time. Like somebody does give a shit. If I’ve to give a reason why am i alive? He would probably be one of them. I’m so thankful to god that i met him, a friend i would never wanna loose. Everytime he cracks funny jokes and does everything he can to cheer me up. He thinks he’s not cute, or attractive he is adorable, and his heart, is beautiful and pure.❤
Another example, I’ve a friend, i met him online. When he sent me request on instagram, i didn’t accept it. I told him he’s a stranger and i won’t accept it until i get to know him. We spoke and then we became friends. And with time our bond grew stronger, he knew i was broken, and he would listen to me rant about all the pain within me, once when he saw a picture of my cuts, he got so mad, i tried my very best not to cut after that. And i know he’s broken too, but he is positive. He is an idol for me. He is healing, rejuvinating.
Sometimes you need to know that isolation isn’t the solution for your problems…
The people who care about you, deserve a place in your heart. Don’t push them away.
PS : I would not say that only the opinions of others matter, or that you should live for others but sometimes when you have people in your life, who care about you, they deserve some respect and love in return.
Until next time…